I know. I know.

This thing is dead. Maybe one day I'll come around again out of boredom. Until then, cheers friends.

Currently Listening Extraordinary Machine By Fiona Apple see related

- Oh, well

The new Fiona Apple cd is to die for. Here's one of my favorite jams, download it, seriously. "Oh, Well."

What you did to me made me
See myself something different
Though I try to talk sense to myself
But I just won't listen

Won't you go away
Turned yourself in
You're no good at confession
Before the image that you burned me in
Tries to teach you a lesson

What you did to me made me see myself somethin' awful
A voice once stentorian is now again meek and muffled
It took me such a long time to get back up the first time you did it
I spent all I had to get it back, and now it seems I've been outbidded

My peace and quiet was stolen from me
When I was looking with calm affection
You were searching out my imperfections

What wasted unconditional love
On somebody
Who doesn't believe in the stuff

You came upon me like a hypnic jerk
When I was just about to settle
And when it counts you recoil
With the cryptic word you even love belittling

Oh what a cold and common old way to go
I was feeding on the need for you to know me
Devastated at the rate you fell below me

What wasted unconditional love
On somebody
Who doesn't believe in the stuff

Oh, well

Currently Reading The Sacred Romance: Drawing Closer to the Heart of God By Brent Curtis, John Eldredge see related

For the first time, in a long time, I am experiencing some real peace. A few months ago peace meant I wasn't having an emotional breakdown that day or in a fight with the bf. Now, peace means that I am whole heartedly resting in God's promises and plans for my life. I'm not worried about minor things, I'm not even really worrying about the major things -- and that's whats so different, I'm SUCH a worrier. Worry and anxiety controlled my life. Well, no longer. It's like I lost 10 additional pounds. But I really just gave up being stressed out. Best diet ever.

Course I know as school starts tomorrow there will be a whole new slew of challenges (the reading for this one class is going to kill me)... but for the first time, I have no anxiety about going to school even though I have no clue where my class in the science building is. It just feel so... odd, but amazing. I can relax! AH!

This week's been so awesome. Did not turn out as I had imagined, but in so many ways I've been blessed and given alot of freedom. I've made so many new friends and rekindled all my other suffering friendships, especially with my roommates, and it is so nice. I am slowly but surely getting my life. MY life. Where I can be friends with who I love, be passionate about the things I love, listen to my music, watch my movies, like my sports.... It's like 2006 is already my best year ever. Thank you VH1 for coining the term.

Three apartments down they are making margarita smoothies. Smoothies? I may have to investigate.

I love pink. It is just such a good color.

That is all for now. Cheers, friends.

LY

Okay. Life is full of surprises. Recruitment started today and I am just looooving it. Yeah it's long, but I had a good good day and met lots of neat girls. Seeing all the chapters gives you an appreciation for all of them. I like that.

The apartment looks amazing if I do say so myself. I hope I can keep it that way. There is still much to conquer but I am confident that this semester I will have a home. Course I did get back to an empty apt, no tv, no internet... so I was like, alright I'm outta here. Tonight Marley, Annie, and myself are going to do something - love those girls. It is nice to have a little time to get settled before school but I am totally procrastinating on unpacking... I know it's going to take hours. Sheesh.

Some job opportunities are opening up involving good pay, free travel, ministry... pray that those will come through. That would be a blessing.

Life is so... different. But good - FREE. I mean, I feel like I've lost 20 pounds just ditching all the anxiety alone. I had no idea how much all that was weighing me down and it is just a whole new world here at school now. Like - the opportunities are endless for success. I am freaking out about how cool it is. AH :)

Alright time for fun. Adios, kiddos.

This break has been amazing. I've had such good times with friends and family. It's been a true blessing and an unexpected one at that. I'm sad that it will all come to an end in a week.

Today was a huge event for me. I got to go SHOPPING. Now, yes, in the last year I have walked through stores and looked... but never have I gotten to just buy two whole outfits or anything. But alas, today was the day, that I took my Christmas money to Firewheel Towncenter with Danielle and shopped. It was so cool! And I fit back into size 4 pants. That is an achievement unto it's own and I let out a squeal in the dressing room.

Alright - shallow update aside - the Lord has been doing incredible things in my life in the past few weeks. It's really been something. Totally new walk. I'm loving it. Ladies - I'm telling you - you have to read Captivating. It will change your life.

I am an aunt for the 6th time! My sister in law Loucinda gave birth to baby Jacob on Saturday morning.  So that makes 4 nephews and 2 nieces. I am a horrible aunt who plays favorites. Oh Megan, my darling five year old - how I adore her with every ounce of my life.

Tomorrow I'm travelling to Austin with Carolyn, then going back to Waco on Thurs where Mom is meeting me to clean out the apartment. I am excited about that one.  Not about having to shampoo the carpets, but about the results. I got some new stuff to decorate with.  I am ready to make it my home again. Summer would be proud. But man alive - what am I going to do for next year? I am praaaaaaaaying that God is going to give me some roommates this semester so I'm not stuck for next year. Please please please, Lord!

I must go to bed as I have to get up early. Happy Holidays, dears.